Covid19

I am tired 

Tired of the Covid19 news, its getting haywire its getting worst or because we are in Malaysia that's why its not getting better ?

When the whole world is fighting for the virus, Malaysia politicians are fighting for their power fighting for their fame and status

I am tired Rakyat are tired 

So many negative news has been sharing for more than a year coming to two years now 

Yes, I am fortunate 

I managed to reunion with my family and found new job during the tough time when many has lost their source of income, I manage to made quite a big decision and sail through it as well but now my country is suffering 

This is not getting any better for everyone's mental health, we are worrying

Worrying that we could be the next victim, the virus is everywhere and so near so close to people surrounding us 

I pray that my parents can stay health 

I pray that our family can sail through this difficult time

I pray that you are healthy and find your state of calm 

I pray that the next time i write is about the good thing the happy incident and not worrying about Covid19 anymore 

Im back to KL - 2021

Funny how things turn, after 4 years plus working in SG, I have now relocate back to KL 

Same me, alone. 

Same room, bunk bed. 

Same company, different department. 

But everything felt so different, yet so similar

I started to recall the push factors to SG, lolll to runaway from all the family stress, want to find myself, want to be independent, want to see how far I can go on my own, tired of Malaysia's politic and system bullshit

And the pull factor to come back to KL ? Really to be with my family 

Everything felt so surreal, but then again after few years, everything changed too. 

I thought I will be back to the 2017, I was wrong. 

Honestly, I don't regret the decision to come back KL, I do miss my freedom mostly in SG, the follow the rule kind of life but I unable to find the direction, the core, the base in the foreign country. 

So here I am, in KL start over and closer to family. 

Different mindset. 

Post dump

oh hey here I am again 

Pick up my very own space to talk about myself again 

Yes , maybe now this is actually the best place for me to share my thought. 

I think i have not making any update since then, yes i am now 31 years old. 

Same old me , same old single , same old no progression in my relationship life. 

I am now working in Singapore , yes in fact here for almost 3 years. 

but i am not at my happiest moment in life. 

working life in Singapore started quite good where i get to stay with my friends, working with commissions and yes, it is so much much more stress compare to before. 

Then i changed my job, shits happened when Mindy Mark broke up ,all three of us separate our ways and stay at different places now. 

So now here i am staying alone with landlord. 

But life never been good as well, working in a shit company and shit management, i am losing my confident after a several failed interview. 

Sad sad case , at this mid life crisis, I am alone, poor, and someone not making progression in life and that I meant love life & financially of course. 

I kinda wonder sometimes, am i now in depression cause i constantly feel stress , and miserable. 

I totally get that if you want something to change you gotta make a move. I want something to change , i want to go back home. 

But it never seems easy. 

I hate to declare that this could be the lowest point in my life. People see me having fun and deep down i know how fuck up my life is. 

Urrghhh, is writing out my feelings going to help me feel better ?

March 2015

Almost a quarter pass by for 2015, the society is worrying about GST that going to implement on 1st April .

Time flies ain't it ? 

Well ... As I recap on what I've wrote on last post, today yes today 27/3/2015 (Friday) I finally owned the very first car in my life - Mazda 2 soul red ! 

Yes .... I bought myself a car like finally and 900 bucks 9 years commitment ...! I'm officially need more and more money now ...! 

However , as my life never easy ... so there was something not quite favorable happened this evening when I was collecting my car ...! 

The front part of my car was having 3 patch of .... I don't know what shit I should called it that need to repaint the whole part of it .

Silly Huh ? How could this thing ever happen to me ? What is this luck called ? 

Totally not in the new car mood from high to low . 

Guess I'm driving U later baby ... We shal meet little later. 

Last Sunday of 2014

Every here and then I realize that I've abandon my blog for such a long time

It seems like my blog is already becoming a place I fare goodbye to years .

Yes , today is the last Sunday I'm havin for year 2014 .

Probably should take a recap on what happened in this years however nothing much changed this year , I'm still single and available , work for the same company Manulife , travel to Taiwan Phuket Bangkok . 

Met a guy that I thought we could had it all somehow he just not so into me , same shits happen when I can't even know what's went wrong . You like me ? Straight up dude ! 

On the other side ,

Life seems getting on track for me and I'm hoping to get myself a car by next beginning of the year .

Btw, just attended my lovely honey Nana wedding yesterday , and I here wishing her once more ... Happy Marriage my lovely friend 😘 

To end my post for probably the last post on 2014 .

肮脏

马年已经过了三个月了，显然明显的。。。。。马来西亚犯了马年太岁！

现在的马来西亚真的很糟糕

缺水 - 多个雪兰莪地区已经开始了长达两个星期的配水，大家一天有自来水一天没有自来水，原本已经编排好的配水时间表也开始乱了阵脚。 唉~ 还有同事就真的快一个月没有水用，这到底是什么 ？天气酷热原来可以导致一个国家那么的缺水 ？ 我不明白了。。。。

烟雾袭击 - 空气素质已经到达了不健康水平，想说也快两个星期了，想在的烟雾已经不再是邻国传来的，是天气导致的自焚。。。。

飞机不见了 - MH370 很不幸的在上个周六消失在空中，这是一个国际关注的新闻，但是马来西亚却闹出了一大堆的丢脸事情，看的国人面子尽失。

心情很烦，空气很糟，没有清新的水源洗涤心灵。。。。。。

年

到处都是新年的气氛，鞭炮声红灯笼。

我也像往常一样，买了新衣新鞋。

可是我的心…一点都感受不到那新年该有的心情，甚至还有点悲伤。

悲伤的是，时间不能倒流，关系渐行渐远了。

自私的表现？不会沟通的表现？还是根本不再留恋的表现？

这个农历年，过的…还真的比我想象的还要遥远！

笑不起来😕

有时候我承认自己很自私，已经没有为他们考虑的余地，自己也变的不会去爱别人，只考虑到自己。

是怎样造成我的自私呢？

我不懂，我也不想去懂。

自私鬼在这一刻…沉沦！

Last ...... 2013

1am on 31/12/2013 

Another year gone and today again kiss goodbye to the last day of 31/12/2013 

2013 is quite a bless year for me ! 

New Job New Chance and blessing to have your accompany along the year, I really appreciate it ! 

What's passed what's gone ? 

From the moment step in 2013 house party til my just celebrated very advance birthday happened last weekend. 

It's a fruitful and joyful year I had with my friends. 

So happy that everyone is still tagging with each other. 

Same old shit I drunk I messed and guess this year just adding in some new stories for my mom to share with all long lost relatives. 

2014 is the year I stepped in 26. 

Yeah u didn't see it wrongly.... It's 26 ! 

Happy birthday to me ! Grown up please 

Purpose of life only comes when you have money to live your life.

Good luck yoke San ! Have a good 2014 too! 

Healthy wealthy pretty and hey you bastard lover faster shown up ! Hahahahahahaha 

 

October 2013 now

24 October 2013

A day where our PM release the budget for 2014 and then I realize I only left two more months to 2014.

Time really passed so quickly, and nevertheless 2013 is quite a changing year for me. They say 25 years old is time you found the real you, with mature thinking and more stable income compare to fresh graduate , they are now  having much stronger financial to support their lifestyle.

Well I have to agree that 25 really changed me. From an immature girl to much mature IT girl and even some say I'm too old to be 25. I'm just trying to enjoy my lifestyle and I think everyone will pass through this phase, I'm now looking a better way to increase my financial like most of my friends.

In this 25 years old gang, I saw different kind of scenario changes happens around me. Jobs, characters and status do cause a bridge between us . Friends are now climbing the social ladder and achieving better in life. 

I'm growing and most importantly I hope I'm growing/learning to be a better person . I'm still that independent girl hoping to have a should to lean on, a dependent girl wanna be ! Lol 

Live well and so long fantasy ! I believe my fantasy will always well placed in my heart. Let's us grown to be a successful one with fantasy in heart . 😘 

Appreciate you my 2013 . Xoxo 

New Chapter

Being a fresh graduate and working as a freshman in society university for 2 years 7 months to be exact. The one phrase that still pondering around my mind is when I was back at college, I told my friends :" THERE TWO INDUSTRY I WON'T LET MYSELF GET INVOLVE, INSURANCE AND BANKING!!" *with passion in my eyes*
and hell yes........that 2 years and 7 months, I was with ING (now formally known as AIA) and in bancassurance department worked closely with PB BANK.
Ayeeeee? two big NO NO industry all comes under same roof- bancassurance.

I don't regret at all to be honest. In fact I started to like my industry, my job scope. I like to deal with people, I like doing coaching. It'a amazing that you can groom one person from zero to 100% and even more.

Well as this is my new chapter of life, I'm here to announce that I've raised goodbye to my very cherry company ING on 9 July and joining new company on next Monday.
As said, there's no mistakes in life, and I believe this will be a very good path for me to have self development.

I'm hoping my new chapter will be an exciting chapter.Chapter that full of gold,happiness,lifestyle,love,health.......

cheers to life people!:)

Random

Ding Donggggg! Think of my most personal space here suddenly, it's been a long time since last update and there goes almost half of March 2013 already.

Well so far 2013 wasn't so right for me tho, I've been struggling from work thingy since back to work after my CNY holiday. Guess it's also because ever since Maria went SG for living, I've got no one to listen to my crap like anytime I driving alone on highway........ >.<"
Kinda miss those moment when we can talk,gossip,sharing among ourselves and bitching about things and people we don't like. LOL I MISS YOU MARIAAAAA

Had a great start countdown party plus my birthday "surprise" party (I've known earlier, no offense but I just now this will happen), thanks to all my college mate that came along, and I really appreciate :)

I like this Birthday gathering, sometimes it's not about celebrating birthday, it's about us gather together LOL

Support my ji mui Penny for her plays. AWESOMEEEEEE and I like it sooooo much, reminds me of BARCELONA as well, hope to see her acting more in the future

As updated on my previous post, SHM one last tour in Kuala Lumpur on 18/1/2013 was a crazzzzzeeeeee night as well, suprisingly Rain and Wei Loong joined us for the party !!! SHM songs were DOPPPPPEEEEE SHIT GREAT! I don't have any words to describe how much I love themmmmm hahahaha! Raveeeeeeeeee long live and give me my ANTIDOTE

Then here comes CNY !!!! 

FOOD ARE OVERLOADED

And my CNY nails art, my favorite :)
 

Once a year Family photo

Last CLUBBING NIGHT before Maria really leave us, and I was wasted on that night *again* LOL


And CNY gathering and a night before Maria say goodbye *sob sob*

Oh ya, last but not least!! Happening weekend again on March, I've attended the ASOT600KUL, another parrrrrteeehhhhhh after SHM, and this was greaaaaaat toooo!!! Thank god I didn't miss out Armin

Rave just makes me forget about reality tho!

I'm actually facing dilemma and at the crossroad on my career but SERIOUSLY...........I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ! Family and works been giving me alot of problems that I can't even handle, I might look tough but I'm not that tough cookies, ignoring those problems seems to be my only action!

:(

Last day in 2012 NYE

AGAIN HERE COMES THE SOS (same old shit) post. Time just flewwwwww don't they?

2012 had been the huge discussion year where everyone thinking about THE END OF THE WORLD, of so many incidents happened throughout the year, no matter it's nature causes or human causes, all we need to do is to stop and look back all these things that brought us here.

2012 resolution checked?

Surprisingly, I think I kinda confirm one

Traveled to Taiwan seriously kick start 2012 well, love Taiwan weather and people alot! Delicious food and those cold air just can't stop me from Missing Taiwan! I WANT TO GO BACK SO BADLY AND I KNOW I WILL GO BACK FOR SURE! More place to go on 2013 please? TRAVELLING BEEN MY DREAMS SINCE YOUNG hehehehehe

Oh ya! the kinda confirm checked resolution is I finally made up my mind to start EXERCISE, join TF finalleeeehh! Glad that my lovely gym mate MARIA accompany me all the way and motivate me while I'm being lazy, hopefully by new year, both of us can become slim hot girl with sexy body! LOL, please control my appetite and diet for me k!

One more BIG EVENT ! My lovely honeyz Shuet yee also gave us a big suprise ! The most tiny one of all but the fastest to get married, LOL! We had so much of fun on her wedding day, gathering with all my honeyyyyyysssss, and I just miss my DMK days! Who don't? Those are precious moment in my life, so glad to know eveyone of you and so glad that we keep contact so well! T.T touching especially when we are leaving the hall, from Sabah from Singapore, but all here gather for the same reason, wish you happiness ya Honey!

As 2012 never cause the world end, I think I should really think of my own future before I end.

ING sadly already sell off their life business to repay their debts at Europe, and I just changed company from ING to AIA. Yessssss AIA staff now, no longer orange but RED. Uncertainty feelings are overflow around colleagues and bosses. THIS IS NOT COOL, I just need to have some time to really consider if I want to stay in this same field, as no BONUS this year, I dont think I'll be able to give a big angpau to my grandma and parents. :(

What my 2013 will be, already got myself a concert ticket on 18 Jan for SHM #onelasttour, one of my besties going to work at SG (sad one) T.T

Well, I guess 2013 will be a year where we really grown up, my birthday coming soon, as usual I just had a gathering with my ji mui men! Thanks for the efforts and I'm so happy we are still the same after so long :)
*tears in my eyes*

I hope 2013 will be a good year for everyone, world peace without war and nature disasters, everybody get wealthier, healthier, prettier and more lover (eh, this sounds wrong), I mean singles get loves and couples more loves HAHAHAHA

Sincerely,
Yoke San


HAPPY NEW YEAR AND WELCOME 2013.

Doomsday never come but I get my dooms

Well, I guess everyone feeling glad that Mayans jokes a bit too hard for doomsday, from planet crash earth to fb post saying we will go through 3 dark nights, and yet I'M ALIVE ! People say doomsday is actually representing a new era, new generation for human being to start fresh and be a better person, as winter solstice day fall on the same day, it's also represent a new year begin in Chinese calendar! But this new beginning really bring me something that I never experienced, this had been my hectic weekend too!

Went Giza Beer factory with ma single ladies on thurs night for doomsday countdown as I'm on leave on 21.12.2012, not purposely but as I need to clear off my leave, and it's winter solstice day on Fri, why not?
RM50 free flow was the doomsday deal offered from beer factory and to be honest, I really get wasted ! Thanks to my sis that fetched me home and again I throw up along the way home, it was pretty yucks I know but DOOMSDAY NEVER COME JUST ANNOY ME! Hahahaha

On Friday morning, SELF HOLIDAY and I'm spending my off day with family and cousins, having lunch together is a MUST DO on this festive day, went gym even it's another freaking heavy rain but still glad that I sweat! Doomsday still care for fitness is such a big CHANGE to me! Hang out with nana bobo and monkey at Setia Walk Puchong for doomsday never come after my gym session, we had so much fun on card games. I hope my dear Bobo can stay strong and don't feel bad for a man who don't appreciate you, we pray for a good man ok? Love ya Bobo

Well Saturday was the highlight of all, been reading the new year prediction for 2013, and for my zodiac Rabbit cum Dragon, Rabbit will go through quite alot of bad luck while Dragon will have a good year, I chose to believe the good one! *I just trying to be positive*
Had lunch appointment with my ji mui Syee at around 2pm and it was a rainy day, as she arrived and I'm was about to went in her car, there's someone touch my shoulder an common sense I turned and saw one man holding a Long parang, this is seriously CRAZY! Yes......my bag is being pulled and snatch, what's more crazy was he's with car instead of motor, I was totally feeling dizzy and tired the whole day, feeling like completed 10km marathon, totally exhausted! This is awful, cancelled all my cards and need to get everything newly done, my fav Gucci purse gone too! T.T

Thank god I dont really get hurt but only bruises, but this is more than enough to scared me off!

If doomsday didn't come, please bring us luck and safety! I just hoping for a safer country, environment and home! Hoping for a better year in 2013, no matter I'm Rabbit or Dragon, please grant everyone love, joy, wealth, health, safety and lucks!

Advise to everyone,Please take care of yourself and stay alert each and every second, crime is happening everywhere, do protect yourself before its too late!

我许

在脸书上看见朋友到欧洲游玩的照片，看见自己踏过足迹的地方，真的好想念！

在米兰美丽的白色教堂前，我的朋友笑得很灿烂，象她新婚的甜蜜挂在脸上 ：）
用滑鼠把照片放大，看见在旁边的留言，有一个留言特别的给了我一个大大的震撼，有个阿姨或是可能已经婆婆级的留言，她说：＂我曾经到过那个教堂，那是1983年的时候！＂

我看了那个留言的当下，把自己想象成了老婆婆，看着可能已经家财万贯，子孙满堂的朋友们上载到欧洲旅行的照片，我一个人在电脑面前看着，感觉好可怜！😞

所以我希望自己可以实现自己的愿望，在我未满30岁前，一定要让自己再到欧洲旅行最少一次，最坏的打算是如果我还是维持单身，那我肯定要给自己一个感受生活，熟女的爱自己旅行！

所以我许，欧洲你要等我！我相信我在许愿池所许的愿望，我会再次踏上这些地方！

Last day of September 2012

Hi readers! I know I know, I'm saying hie to the air, LOL it's been too long since my last post, but please forgive me. Yours truly had a quite busy last 2 quarter of year which need to work on most of my Saturday, this really depressing.

BUT

I've taken 1 week of bloc leave, this is really awesome one, give myself a good rest and almost forgot to share with you guys, I just came back from Bangkok with my diploma honeys! It's been a year since we booked the AA ticket, now Everyone can fly zero fair promo really cause me waited for a year, and yet 4d3n just ended too quickly.

I don't even have much photo to share with you guys, but one thing special about this trip was because this is probably the last single lady trip for my lovely honey Shuet yee.

Suprise Suprise Suprise when she first told us all at Levain on August that she's getting married in this coming December, everyone of us was like : " Nooooo, YOU R KIDDING US!" but hold your breath, this is true!

Can't really make myself believe this even she's going to have her ROM soon, but seriously happy for her, and she's the first close friend of mine getting married.

Now time really flies since I step in 23, coming 25 soon for myself. I wish for a better career, health, wealth and hope for love.

Wish me luck people :)

30/9/2012
23:28




Yours truly,
Yokesan

What you work, What you get

As what I've updated, I'm now a WORKAHOLIC! No joking and don't cover your mouth and laugh at me, am taking very serious about work nowwwww hahahaha

Thank god my hard work get paid off, last month MAY, my region exceeding target and hit 600K! *JUMP*
Now that the whole team momentum is there and everyone is excited about the up coming roadshow, we are now wishing for higer levels, but somehow I'm tired, tired about working on weekend, my precious Saturday gone like phewwwwwww shit!  I need some spare time, some own time some FREEEEEEE TIME !

But after all, what you work, what you get! Without all these weekend, then I wouldn't get to hit my target!

soooooooo....stay workaholic

Morning

Hello morning people *probably greeting to myself again*

It's a short update here!

I'll be working on every Saturday starting this weekends and I'm now fully madly totally exhausted!

Wish me luck people , I hope I can finish my task and back to normal again, workaholic me? Not my style right? Hahahaha

Till then people, yours truly got to get back to work!

Ciao

Taiwan complete!

It's about a month since I'm back from Taiwan and sadly now only I have time to update my bloggie, =/ What to do? So much of work left out behind and seems I need to pick all my left out work up all by myself, after all no one really can help you but yourself, I hope you copy that! :)

Speaking to my Taiwan trip, it was a bit of rushing but overall satisfied! :))
Our hard work pay off and actually can be said well planned just timing part shitty a bit! Missed out Yang Ming Shan would be the saddest thing of all :(

But,

Nevermind, I'm still happy with all the plan we had! Checked shopping and clubbing and sight seeing and hot spring and even Apples of my eyes movie scene hahahaha so fun!

Can't forget how fat the sheep at Ching Jing look like, how beautiful scenery and delicious food at Taipei, how happening the night market of all Taipei and Tai Chung, how friendly Taiwan people is, how efficient their MRT is, how nice the weather is and bla bla bla! Oh help, I'm missing Taiwan already! :(

No matter how reluctant, I still need to check out and back to Malaysia, they say happy mood will make you forget about time is what exactly I felt, never thought of 8 days will pass so quickly.

Anyhow, it's photo sharing time, hope you enjoy my Taiwan with my Taipei members! Cheers all, and wishing for another vacation!

Gateway

Hi there, I'm home today packing and thinking what to wear for my 8D7N holiday gateway with my lovely Taipei Members. We had been struggling for few months for this...STRUGGLING?? Yessss...totally, thanks to one of our member Maria with her long-well-know-only-find-toilet-when-the-shit-is-reaching-asshole attitude. we've been creating alot of scene and excuses for her if she unable to apply leave to come with us.

Thank god 2 days before the trip finally we finalize everything and she's now back to positive, I wouldn't dare to imagine if she really skip this trip, perhaps she'll just find out 5 missing friends on her facebook friends list HAHAHA!

I'm so flu now, flu like I totally cannot think and analyze!

Hopefully I'll have a great holiday and don't get sick at Taiwan, Have a great weekend ahead people! :)

Terribly lonely

I'm home alone, feeling super hungry after woke during lunch time 12pm. Ask me why I'm waking up so late, I just had a night out with my friend. It's been 2 months I guess, no loud music no dance no full make up! I don't even really remember how to dance...epic fail!

Ever since I feel stress or not happy, I feel like hitting the club, get along with loud music but of course people surrounding is important too! I miss all my friends who can enjoy the night with me, we fooled and drunk and high but it just couldn't happen now, that was few years back and we hardly make it together again.

LOUD MUSIC, HARD LIQUOR my fallen weekend