Covid19

I am tired 

Tired of the Covid19 news, its getting haywire its getting worst or because we are in Malaysia that's why its not getting better ?

When the whole world is fighting for the virus, Malaysia politicians are fighting for their power fighting for their fame and status

I am tired Rakyat are tired 

So many negative news has been sharing for more than a year coming to two years now 

Yes, I am fortunate 

I managed to reunion with my family and found new job during the tough time when many has lost their source of income, I manage to made quite a big decision and sail through it as well but now my country is suffering 

This is not getting any better for everyone's mental health, we are worrying

Worrying that we could be the next victim, the virus is everywhere and so near so close to people surrounding us 

I pray that my parents can stay health 

I pray that our family can sail through this difficult time

I pray that you are healthy and find your state of calm 

I pray that the next time i write is about the good thing the happy incident and not worrying about Covid19 anymore 

Im back to KL - 2021

Funny how things turn, after 4 years plus working in SG, I have now relocate back to KL 

Same me, alone. 

Same room, bunk bed. 

Same company, different department. 

But everything felt so different, yet so similar

I started to recall the push factors to SG, lolll to runaway from all the family stress, want to find myself, want to be independent, want to see how far I can go on my own, tired of Malaysia's politic and system bullshit

And the pull factor to come back to KL ? Really to be with my family 

Everything felt so surreal, but then again after few years, everything changed too. 

I thought I will be back to the 2017, I was wrong. 

Honestly, I don't regret the decision to come back KL, I do miss my freedom mostly in SG, the follow the rule kind of life but I unable to find the direction, the core, the base in the foreign country. 

So here I am, in KL start over and closer to family. 

Different mindset.