Dreaming

Recalled back the moment when I was at Spain, the realxing trip we called it. Talked to people that inspired me, or I should say people who makes me feel jealouse on! LOL
Well, the first people I met at Barcelona, an uncle around 60+ years old, he's on a bike now, wondering which country he is now, a retired old man who riding a bike for about three months time, travel to sooooo many country, he likes coffee and wine so much as he can travel to the place just for a delightful wine. I'm pretty impress on his passion on life, he enjoy his journey because :" I'm free to go everywhere, I have my own bike, all my luaggage there, the bike carried for me!".

The second person, a 180++ cm guy from Poland, age around 28-25, tall and hairless, he manage his business himself, freeman and travel around, kinda shame when he asked me Do I know where Poland is and I said NO...BOooo~~ But, as he said :" I'm alone and one person only, I can go everywhere I want, I might stay at Barcelona for one year, it's depend because I can go, just go to other places if I dont like here, I will go Africa on chirstmas, I like there..!"

Both of them makes me think of my future, how my future would be?ouuhh, its seems will happen like a mold, work and work and work and work, then old, then die....!
Can i ever live like them?? they are living lifestyle, not just life!

well, I only dare to dream when I able to, faced the reality....I need to pay back my loan, I need to survive, $$$ aint drop from the sky


WAKE UP

turning point

Guess this the fifth night I stil awake during middle of the night, jet lag is just an excuse for me to sleep late, as I need to upload the tons of pictures after my five weeks europe trip dreams!

Wondering how would it be for the future, I'm a person who don't really like changes at the beginning of time, kinda person who afraid of change and alone but as time goes by, yours truly become a person who need to accpet the reality, the fact of reality does burden me and change me!!

Feel to write a letter for myself, a letter to a 25 years old me?!!

asking myself how my life goes on?what I will look like?found someone who willing to hold my hand? found a decent job?enjoy my life?hows the progress of paying back loan?

OMFG, I'm 22 now, such a far away age for me,never though of, but now I am here, 22 years old, fresh graduate and came back from England.

Oh yea, NEver ever though of I will study abroad, to a country that thousand miles away.

I'm in my turning point now, feeling lost and lost...

I'm back, back to reality!!

I've though of updating my bloggie when i reaced Dubai but failed to do so since the connection there is damn unsecure!!! *just trying to act protective to my blog* muahahaha

It's been 5 weeks I'm on travelling, little bit too over huh??NAhhhh....I dont think so~
Yeah, perhaps people sees me as travelling more than studying!!!
well, I'm glad....glad to have this opportunity travel around places I had dreamed about such as Venice, Paris, Italy- Rome and Ventican city!!! SUCH A ROMANTIC PLACE BUT WITHOUT A LOVELY PARTNERRRR!! lol

Seems too short for me, away from home
thanks to my dad, fetched me back from KLIA but also the cruelest thing was telling me about things i most not wanted to know!!!

but MOM!!!!She seems dont even care about my return, what she cared??her sourvenior, her friends sourvenior!! OMFG...it hurts me~
*Please then, do not judge me on how i spend my money, because i know i will return it by my own!!!!*

我离开你，是我最想留在那里的原因！！！