为什么冬夜渐暖

当冬夜渐暖

很多事情不是谁说了就算

即使伤心结果还是自己担

多少次失望表示着多少次期盼

事实证明幸福很难

尤其喜欢这四句开头，现实和理想永远存在着差距，拉扯只会徒增结局的难堪，所以我们都选择逃避！

也不明白为什么每一次听着一首歌的时候会有心酸的感觉

Grenade

Bruno Mars Grenade

My friend once ask me what is this music video all about, well to be frank I don' really like this song when I first heard this song, I wasn't like it as much as I am now, maybe because of not really listening what Bruno Mars trying to tell, but as more and more of my friend recommend me to listen, I'm started to be kinda obsessed in Bruno Mars as well. 

For me, I think this video are best describing Bruno Mars failed relationship, when he was trying to give all of his true heart to her favorite girl, the reason why he is pulling a piano? Well, maybe because of all he have is just his talent, his music talent, he is bringing his sincerity, ALL he have to the girl he love the most. Although it's hard, although there are many of people not supporting, he is using his own life to love this girl, but what he get in the end was just a betray, the girl has another guy.

I would give this video a big big credit!! love ya Bruno Mars <3

Royal wedding

Just last Friday, when William and Kate royal wedding goes on, I was drinking with my colleagues in a bar nearby our office, damnn I missed out the Live show of the royal wedding.

Love spree around when both of them announce their marriage, feeling so grateful when I know that Prince William finally found his Princess Kate and finally life happily ever after together in the castle. Once I though, will I married with a prince that pick me up with white horses, with servant beside him, bring me a nice heels, we live happily after. Awww, this is what little girls dream about don't you think so?

Day after Friday, which is my dizzy Saturday, I watched the replay through NTV7, and well.....Kate is stunning, with her Sarah Burton-Alexander McQueen wedding gown, she looks just so beautiful and well...if Prince William didn't remove his hat, he will still stay handsome in my deep heart, it would be perfect too if he's not mold.  hahaha

This is the perfect scene for the whole day, the second kiss is like a bonus to all the royal fans! SWEET ^^

Ask me should we keep the kings, I would definitely say yes for UK but not Malaysia please, 9 kings is little bit toooooo OVER!

New lesson learned today

After a long weekend, today just seems like another blue day for me, definitely not only me but I believe most of my friend do feel this way especially those who working at the moment, and first day working people.

I though today will be another ordinary day, meeting with the team and then rushing to Klang for branch visitation and etc. Unfortunately, things don't goes as what it should go. Once I finished the chit chat session with Doc which is known by ING CEO, my nightmare started.

Received calls from few bankers which cause me alot of problems, as they are always blah blahh blahhh, and I ya ya ya, I only could delay them until I'm back from lunch, as my colleagues said, well....we couldn't even had a proper lunch.

Well, I always having faith in myself, learned " God only help those people who help themselves", I believe that I can handle all sort of problems, the problems can be deal and settle if I am faithful and because I wanna help myself, but again it just don't go this way.

 Not only handle with the bank side but also I need to settle the arrangement side, customer side and admin side to get things done. Right after I get the feedback from EB and need to to call up customers, I called and get blamed....she is not in a good manner though! Well, I answered in a very polite way, at least my team leader agreed, but still feeling after all, this is so awful when that stupid lady put all the blames on me and didn't aware that she is the one at the beginning didn't wanted to cooperate!

Now everything is too late, I won't blame anyone, I need a solution and that's it!

Say me not, I just want to figure things out, NOT TO LET YOU LOOK DOWN!

*btw, I'm feeling sad, real sad real down today, and even couldn't find a companion for a dessert runaway*

PATHETIC

那么你会相信我吗？

传言是可畏的，就像是传染病一样的肆无忌惮传开来
但是最可怕的是当你发现说你的，传你的是你把他当成朋友的人，那种心痛和心酸的感觉我曾经有过，也刚刚有过

我就是这样的一个人，粗心大意，没头没尾，常常忽略身边的人，不细心，优柔寡断。。。听起来，一点好处也没有！我单纯的以为 大家都了解我的个性而且也读的明白我是一个怎样的人，还是你曾经怀疑过，那么白痴的人真的有吗？

其实我也只是好奇，当你对朋友有所不满时，你对他们说了吗？你会直接说出来吗？
虽然暂时我还没有遇见过这事情，但是我发现，原来我们之前所谓的疯狂（约出来谈）却是重友情的表现。

也对，我宁愿你选择相信我，问我，跟我谈， 也不希望你在背后说我，挑剔我，传我，让我想一个傻瓜一样，还在其它人面前傻傻的笑


当朋友们对我笑话，而我却不知道的话，那才是最悲哀的时候